The Little Angel
When I sit to write a lot of things go into my mind about what I am going to write, how to place that word or this word on the right paragraph, and so on. At times when I sit to write nothing comes into my mind there is always a block for writing or starting, but today I am so happy to write something about a small angel who is going to come into this wonderful world.
A small poem which I saw when I was reading some article. At first, I did not understand anything but after reading two-three times I got the essence of that poem. Sometimes things come to us we can’t explain how but one way or the other they will come to us. I will say something about a mother waiting for her baby to come into this world.
Before flying to the UK
correctly saying two days before that is on January 20, I received a voice
message from my sister in the UK. It said, “da you are coming to the UK, you are
aware of my situation now, coronavirus is spreading and you should be very
careful while traveling. Wear two masks in flight and at the airport, carry a
packet of the mask with you and change it when all you feel so “some might be wondering
what in the world is she telling me. I was able to see a mother’s concern for
her baby who is yet to come into this Wonderful world. She was so concerned I could
see and feel that in everything she does. She is just two months pregnant I
think so when I came to the UK and I was able to see a huge difference in her from
a sister to an upcoming mother ... I
could see her running into the washroom and vomiting all those times when we
had dinner and I was like Ooo no what is she doing eating the food and vomiting
all those.
She began to feel
better about the start of the second trimester, all of the annoying symptoms of
the first trimester are fading and are not so severe that she is physically
uncomfortable; the next three months are the time to get things done, plan, and
talk about the baby. An ultrasound at 20 weeks to determine whether you are having a girl or a
boy. The first time I understood how I felt about my sister’s pregnancy was after the ultrasound. I watched a small scan copy of, a little angel moving around in her tummy, and I freaked. I have a lot of respect for my brother and sister because at the beginning they
wanted to know the gender of the baby but later that they didn't because they realized
boy or girl was God's gift. She begins to feel the baby move around, those kicks
and hiccups that you can't tell are from gas or baby.
One day we all were
sitting in front of the television and having some casual talks and she suddenly asked
“do you need a baby girl or baby boy”. The sudden answer that I give her was I needed a baby girl. She told our. I think it’s because in my house I had a brother
and always wished to have a sister, maybe that’s the reason I told her I need a
baby girl. But boy or girl uncle was ready here to take care of you.
You could see my
brother walking back from her, irritating her making her mad, and so on. At times I
have thought these two are so cute and lovely and sometimes I have thought what
in the world is he doing to her in this situation? I have seen both of them
fighting the most and after some time I was able to see both sit together
and talk to the baby. Chechy is very sensitive sometimes because I have felt
that because some might know I am a short-tempered person and I don’t know
how I react to people at times, At times I have behaved very rashly with her and
to be frank I have seen her crying after that. Those times I was thinking why
is she so sensitive? Why is she like this? The one reply to my question was da
chechy is in this situation so don’t be rash to her, she likes you tats why she
is walking back of you and correcting you. I have a friend to whom I tell all my
day-to-day things. I told her all that time she told me da during pregnancy
time mood swings happen and we can’t imagine how things will be and she has
added one more thing as a boy you don’t understand this but as a girl, I understand
how she feels and advised me you be nice to her and take care of her. Chechy it’s
not because I don’t love you or respect you, I am just not good at expressing
my feelings.
For many mothers, the
third trimester is the most difficult; moms become tired, they are sore from
carrying around the baby's weight and things in their bodies move and happen that
they do not expect and cannot control and more about the birth of the angel is
nearing. But I have not seen her tired you could see her walking here and there
in the house, doing that and this. She is the one who runs back of me and
others saying do that do this. I have not seen a pregnant lady this active.
August 3rd was the date and nearing the date I felt that she is all
set to welcome the baby angel into this world, I have seen her sitting and
talking to the baby, I have seen her praying, and so on. I would say she is a mother
who wanted the best for her baby because for buying things and stuffs for the baby
she always searched for the best of best things.
It was nearing the date,
she used to say it was my birthday on July 29th and if the baby was also
on the same date it would be wonderful. Whatever it is you could always see her
happy in all sense. On 28th early morning brother came down and
woke me up and told me to get ready soon chechy is not feeling well we are moving
to the hospital. Went to the hospital they kept her for observation. Her mother and I went to the hospital and could not see her, so we both went and sat at the chapel. There were lots of things going through everyone’s minds. Everyone seems
ok but the truth is tension was hitting everyone. Brother seems fine but I am
sure inside him it was burning like hell. The morning when they went to the hospital
everyone was tensed but chechy seems so fine he he he he he. I kept on ringing
her and brother all kept saying some horrible scientific terms and things I was
like aaaaa what are these people saying? I ring Ashly and told da chechy is in
hospital and she started asking me things I told her da I don’t know what you are asking all I know is she is in
hospital. We were back at home and after 9 pm she was alone in the hospital no one
was supposed to stand there. I kept texting her, and she seems fine. I was
praying to god that she should be fine. Whatever it is one day without her at
home seemed so dull, and it was her birthday tomorrow. I bought her a gift and
kept it at home but unfortunately, I was not able to give her. Her waters broke. Her little contractions start, and everyone was in a state of panic. She was hooked up to machines that show the baby’s heartbeat is not that good, The morning we
got up brother was ready to go to the hospital, he received a call and saw him
running to the hospital, a few minutes later he called and told will need an
operation for her. Everyone was tensed, around 9.15am he called and told us she
is been taken to the theatre and after some time we heard the news that she has
given birth to a baby angel. Everyone was very happy, chechy what a wonderful
gift god has given you on your birthday. Sometimes god hears our prayers;
sometimes he takes time and looks after us. You prayed and you got the best gift
ever on your birthday. As a brother I am so happy, you told me “da you only
told you to need a baby girl here she is “. Now, uncle Joice is waiting to see you
and look after you. I know and I am sure you will be a wonderful mother because I have experienced your care as a sister and as a mother .
Chechy always says to
me just see all these days you have to go through all these what your
brother is going through. Have a lot to write about you and baby but words keep on running through me and I am not able to place those words in the right place. I will once you are aside me running back of me " da poyi kochina nokda "
"For you formed my inmost being. You knit me together in my mother's womb. I will give thanks to you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. your works are wonderful. My soul knows that very well(Psalm 139: 13-14)
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