“A Little Bit Of Everything I Feel”

“The right decision at the right time “ 

Life often puts us in moments where we are forced to question everything we once believed in. The idea of making the “right decision” sounds simple when people say it. Many people around us confidently advise, “Just go for what you get, there is no time to waste.” But life is rarely that simple, especially when your heart and mind do not fully agree with that approach. For me, the question has always been the same: What is the right decision? And even more confusing than that is another question — When is the right time?

People talk about timing as if it is something obvious. They say, “When the time is right, you will know.” But the truth is, sometimes you don’t know. Sometimes you sit quietly with your thoughts and wonder if the moment you are living right now is that so-called “right time,” or if it is simply another test life has placed before you. These days, these questions have become heavier in my mind because my visa in the UK is nearing its expiry date. March 8th is approaching faster than I expected, and with every passing day, I find myself thinking more deeply about the future. It feels like standing at a crossroads without a clear sign telling me which path to take.

For the past four years, this country has been more than just a place where I live. It has become a part of my life. Within these years, I have built memories, relationships, routines, and small pieces of happiness that quietly became important to me. Now, as uncertainty begins to grow, I realise how much I have already started missing things — people who have been part of my everyday life, places that felt familiar, and moments that once felt ordinary but now feel precious. It is strange how life teaches us the value of things only when the possibility of losing them appears. When I think about the future, many people tell me the same thing: “Take whatever opportunity you get. Don’t be too selective.” Their advice is practical and realistic. In a world where survival often comes before preference, their words make sense. But at the same time, I cannot ignore the person I am inside.

I have my own taste, my own principles, and my own vision of how I want my life to move forward. Choosing something simply because time is running out feels like betraying the person I have always tried to be. It feels like giving up on the belief that the right path should also feel right in the heart, not just logical in the mind. That is the conflict I live with right now — the struggle between urgency and authenticity.

Another thing that has been quietly shaping my thoughts recently is the nature of relationships and kindness. I have always believed in helping people whenever I could. It felt natural to support others, to stand beside them in difficult moments, and to offer help without expecting anything in return. But life has a way of teaching lessons that are not always comfortable. Over time, I have realised that sometimes the very people you help the most are the ones who eventually make you feel the most hurt. Not intentionally perhaps, but through actions that make you feel taken for granted or forgotten. There comes a moment when you realise that your kindness has placed you in a vulnerable position, where you end up lowering your head, feeling disappointed by people you once trusted.

This realization is painful, but it is also part of growing. I am not saying that helping others is wrong. Kindness will always remain one of the most beautiful qualities a person can have. But there is a difference between helping people and losing yourself in the process. When your generosity begins to cost you your peace of mind, it becomes important to pause and rethink the boundaries you set in your life. I have experienced many situations that have taught me this lesson. I could mention names and stories, but I choose not to. Not because those experiences were small, but because I believe some things are better left unspoken. Carrying bitterness forward only makes the journey heavier.

Instead, I choose to learn from those moments. These days, life feels heavier than usual. There is uncertainty about the future, questions about the right decisions to make, and memories that make it harder to imagine leaving behind everything that has become familiar. But somewhere deep inside, there is also a quiet hope. A belief that no matter how confusing the present feels, life eventually finds a way of placing things where they belong. Sometimes the path becomes clear only after we walk through the fog for a while.

Maybe the “right time” is not something we recognise immediately. Maybe it is something we only understand when we look back later and realise that every difficult moment was shaping us for something ahead. Right now, I do not have all the answers. I do not know exactly what the future holds, or which decision will turn out to be the right one. But what I do know is this: life is not just about choosing the easiest path or the quickest solution. It is about staying true to yourself even when the world pushes you to rush. The uncertainty I feel today may eventually become a story I will tell someday — a chapter in life where everything seemed unclear, but where strength was quietly growing beneath the surface. Until that day comes, I will continue to move forward with patience, faith, and the belief that the right decision will reveal itself when the moment truly arrives. Because sometimes, the most important thing is not having all the answers — it is having the courage to keep going even when you don’t.

“Sometimes the hardest part of life is not making the right decision, but having the courage to wait for the moment when your heart finally knows it is right.”

❤️Joe❤️